True Friends

Recently, i have noticed a sudden change in my surroundings. Particularly, some of the friends i hang out with. I've been close with them for the past few years and honestly I loved them from the bottom of my heart. But sometimes people can change, don't you agree? I have experienced much in these kinds of situations. Friends who just want to be with you for a specific reason; friends who just pretend to like you; friends who talk behind your back; friends who don't trust you; and friends who just leave you suddenly, all alone.

Actually I experienced the latter part of the examples. Some friends leave me. I feel so disappointed at some point in my life. Am I forgotten? Am I that hateful? Did I do anything wrong to you? Why did you leave me? I honestly don't know why. Sometimes, I just yearn for my friends who have already changed to come running back to me instead of me always the one who is searching for them. I feel alone nowadays.

People say i have a lot... actually, hundreds of friends! I'm happy to hear them say that but what I really think is: "but do I have the true friends?". It somehow haunts me that I'm blogging something like this without telling them. Sometimes I feel sinful talking about this in public behind my friends. I admit, I have also changed. But why did I? Was it because of the bad influences shown to me, or did I really want to change so that I can keep with the changes in everyones lives? I honestly don't know the reason. And I also don't wanna know. I might as well never realize it. Im scared of knowing the truth. To know if I'm really bad or to know who changed me.

A piece of advice to everyone who has doubts in their relationship with friends. In whatever you do, you must always do what you think is best. Never to be swayed by your surroundings, even if they are your friends. You should also love your friends to the fullest like there wont be tomorrow. But I don't advice you to actually put complete trust in anyone except your parents. You may suffer. But this is only what I think. If you think I'm wrong, go ahead and choose for yourself because it is your life, your decisions, your future. I hope you go through this journey with a smile on your face and with no regrets.